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Notes From a Small Place

As I sit and write this Im sitting on a train heading back from London (probably not the best time to be typing on a laptop.. but hey. who cares? not I.). London always makes me feel a lot better about myself.. think is something to do with the hussle and bustle of everyone else. When you walk calmly through it, unhurried and not rushed, there is some kind of osmosis at work. Its like.. because there is so much stress in the world around you it somehow pulls it out of you. Leaving you calm and happy.

Although, to be honest, I was cheerful whle I was walking today anyway. It wasn't a particlularly nice day, nor has anything happened that should cheer me up. No.. something else was working on me today.

As I wandered past Tower Hill I was singing a tune to myself, let the uptight suits give me strange looks if they want, I'm not the one that's going to have an ulser by the time I turn thirty. I was thinking that I hadn't felt like this since I was in America. There's of cource a good reason for that.

Occupying my thoughts was Avionne. I'll see her again soon (though not soon enough) and thinking about her cheers me up a lot, as it aways does, but somehow more so today. I know I sometimes sounds as if moving to the USA is the be all and end all, but frankly its not where I go that matters to me.. its who I'm with. Not only does the USA hold Avionne, it has Cherie, Jym, Jyll, Jess, James, and many other people that I've met there, including the indominable Shannon, whos timekeeping may not be perfect (like mine is! hah!) but I'm sure we'll get on well based on our all to short meeting. Not only them, but there are the ones I know and have yet to meet- Brandi, Kim and most of you people out there.

I know Avionne worries that we won't work out, that things won't stay the same between us, that the sun might not come up tomorrow.... I know she does. She worries, thats what she does. I don't, hats what I do - because at the end of the day if t does work out between s what will I have? Memories of the great times, new friends, a new outlook, maybe a new life. At the very worst Ill have to come back here and find work. It could be a lot worse than that.

But if it does work out? Well...

I don't think I need to tell you how great that would be. I hope it does. I mean it to.

I have a good feeling about it.

Comments

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kaleidoscopes
16th May, 2003 17:10 (UTC)
You're really a wonderful writer. You just have a way of saying things that makes them seem... captivating. I like it and miss your LJ entries. :-)

I can't wait to meet you... A month and a half left. *grin* I can't believe it'll be a year since we first met soon... That just baffles me. Seems like yesterday.

*huggles*
darkcryst
17th May, 2003 02:24 (UTC)
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awwwwww
*el blusho mucho*
you're too sweet *hugs*

It'll be good to see you too!
xsyntrik
16th May, 2003 19:17 (UTC)
hmph! Shows how much you loved seeing me! *giggle*

Things are going to work out very nicely for you and Avi and if by some freak of nature they don't then you have a great attitude about it.

Can't wait to see you again *sniff* even if I wasn't notable enough to mention....

*giggles uncontrollably at making you feel guilty*
darkcryst
17th May, 2003 02:27 (UTC)
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*fails to succumb to the blatent guilt trip*

It'll be great to see you again too :)

You know I lub ya! ;)
xsyntrik
17th May, 2003 03:59 (UTC)
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*grin* I know ya do. It'll be good to see your smiling face too!
darkcryst
17th May, 2003 04:23 (UTC)
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awww thanks :)
rethought
16th May, 2003 19:17 (UTC)
*smiles*
Glad I can make the US of A more appealing to ya.
Hope to see you again soon.
darkcryst
17th May, 2003 02:28 (UTC)
Re: *smiles*
Yup.. :) when are you back from your parental visits?
rethought
17th May, 2003 05:50 (UTC)
Re: *smiles*
definitely back...I am at home now in NC, but will be visiting Chatt-town as often as possible
shineyquarter
16th May, 2003 20:33 (UTC)
Damn, you know how to make a girl cry.

I am glad you don't worry because I certainly worry enough for the both of us.

*hugs*
darkcryst
17th May, 2003 02:32 (UTC)
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aww *Squeeze*
That you do hon ;) that you do.

*uberloveandhugs*
shineyquarter
17th May, 2003 03:17 (UTC)
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*hugs and kisses*

You are wonderful!
topofcool
17th May, 2003 12:21 (UTC)
Avionne is a very lucky girl to have you. I feel that same way about Eva. I really want to make it work. I wish you the best with Avi. [hugs]
darkcryst
17th May, 2003 16:21 (UTC)
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*squeeeze* and the same to you with Eva. Hang in there :)
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darkcryst
17th May, 2003 16:21 (UTC)
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yay! :)

Thanks :D
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