hopefulOn the couch I may add... credit me with some morals.
I got a phone call from her in the afternoon, she was very ill and couldn't get home from where she was (about 5 miles away from her home, about 30 from mine). She doesn't drink much and had drunk a lot the night before.. was very unwell.. plus she hadn't eaten in 24 hours. Silly girl.
Anyhow, after finally going through all the options (no money for Taxi, she'd tried the bus and practically spewed all over it and fainted), I agreed to pick her up. This I did.
We had a long talk after I'd got her home, and bought her something to eat (cheap(ish) thai food - yummy and good for you).
You see we SUCKED as a couple, just didn't work, There was no spark, no nothing. EXCEPT... we are really good friends, and still are, and thats good. The only problem is there is a big physical attraction between us. This is a bad thing. Complicates things and not only do I not want to get hurt, I don't want to hurt her and ruin our friendship.
Anyhow, we talked about it. Its been left unsaid far too long and it needed to happen. We've agreed that we're good friends, and are going to keep it like that. We've just got to try to get by the physical stuff. I think we'll make it.
I hope so, hopefully we'll get by it. Maybne we need to not have contact for ages, or maybe we just need to see each other less sporadically. I don't know. What I do know is that I don't want a relationship with her.. and that says enough I think.
*sighs in a hopeful way*
