I'm at the limit of my overdraft and I have money oweing on my credit card... fuck. I'll have no money coming in for another month. My parents have aggreed to loan me some money so that I don't get the repo men around or anything, but of course I'm going to have to pay them back.
With what though? I'm starting this new Events Manager job monday next week, but it'll barely be enough to pull my bank balance into check before christmas. I've been looking for a part time job to suplement this one, but as the hours are "flexable" at the Hermit Club I've no idea what they actaully are until next week. This doesn't put me in a great position. Also I have the Volunteer IT thing 'm doing for Theatre Resource at their UK Online center.. frankly if its a job or them.. bye bye them. Unless they pay me for it..
Add to that the whole GateCentral/EveGate work.. and working on a portfolio.. all my computer 'work' in fact. I'm getting a real sence of apathy atm.
I still feel tired permanantly, which doesn't help. The only times recently I've felt good were ECTS and The Road Trip. Even then I knew I'd be paying for it in the end.. arse.
Am I wallowing? I feel as if I'm being really self centered.. but right now everything apears fucked up. Its a year on from when I graduated and I'm still stuck in no-hope land. With no way out. No end in sight...