"Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colours, and the people there see you differently, too. Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving."- Tiffany Aching, via Terry Pratechett, "A Hat Full Of Sky"
You don't have to know me that well to understand why I'm posting that quote. Somehow that quote slapped me in the face with something, that even after all this time, I'm still only just understanding. I've been too busy wallowing in my own little self-constructed world of mediocre bitterness to really pay attention and effect the goddamn world.
Not any fucking more. I'm sick of this shit. I need a job, I need to getting fitter and healthier, I need to create and produce. While all of these are easier with people helping me, they are still things I have to do. Only I can really start this, and I have to start. I can't just pretend that its all the worlds fault, that its against me. Its not against me any more than anyone else.
Time to wake up, slap myself in the face, and fucking do something.